“I can’t get things done that I really need to do, I always get distracted.”

“I seem to have two speeds, go go go, and crash and burn, complete stop.”

“I don’t really understand how to relate to people I don’t know well. I go to parties and, unless I have a task I set myself, like helping in the kitchen, I just feel awkward/anxious/overwhelmed.”

Those examples may all feel very different. All of them could lead one to believe that there’s something that needs to be fixed. While these might not be issues that lead clients to want to work with me, my ears perk up when I hear them in folks’ stories.

They’ve actually all been true for me. I remember having to talk myself through parties in my teens and 20s (and 30s), “It’s okay if you just sit quietly, you don’t have to talk to people if you don’t feel like you have something to say.”

Hi, it’s me. Sensitive.

Throughout my life I’ve occasionally had what I refer to as “meltdowns”. Sometimes it’s a bout of crying uncontrollably, with no clear reason why. Sometimes it’s just the need to take myself to bed early (or in the middle of the day), with the question hanging, am I sick? Well, no… but I can’t function. That’s the two speeds, gogogo and stop. An expression coined by my mother, so that gives you an idea of how far back those tendencies go for me.
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