This is an edited post from January 7^th, 2014. I’ve deepened my understanding of the Twelve Holy Days. May you find value in this exploration of an age-old spiritual tradition.

It’s winter for real, now. The light may be returning after Solstice, but for most of us the air is cold and it’s more comfortable indoors. Or maybe under the covers.

Today is Christmas. I’m not particularly Christian, but I find value in many symbols from many different spiritual traditions. Tomorrow begins the Twelve Holy Days.

Solstice, December 21st, marks the moment in the northern hemisphere when the day is shortest, the longest night. The tightest contraction, if you will. There’s a span of time where things stop. The days aren’t immediately longer. There’s a resting. When early Christians chose the 25th of December as the birthday of the Christ, they did so for a reason. This is when we begin to experience movement again, just the inkling of expansion. The Sun appears again.

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In our 30 years each of seeking, sitting, studying and experiencing depth initiations, my husband, Tom, and I realized there are recognizable patterns in most spiritual practices and resulting changes in the human experience. Adopting a practice changes you. It brings what is true in your experience to light. It will help change patterns that no longer serve.

We have synthesized the practices we have studied, practiced, and now teach into a body of work we call Direct Access Techniques™.

Our in-person Spiritual Practices 101 workshop was a great success and we are very proud of what we put together. We are excited to bring it to you as a home study course! We recorded the guided meditations, and compiled the teaching and discussion points into a workbook. The workbook includes an overview of categories, styles and purposes of practices in an accessible format so that you understand why you would take on one practice over another in any given time. We provide online support to help you establish a practice and receive answers to your questions as you do so.

Recently I realized there was an ingredient in my own process that I have not always included in my private work with clients. Meditation. Many of the techniques I use are spiritual practices, but if the mind hasn’t learned to steady itself a bit, it can be very difficult to remember even the intention to practice. It is important to begin with the simplest, and most powerful form – concentration on the breath to steady attention, opening into mindfulness of the present moment.

A local psychotherapist and meditation teacher once told me he tells his new clients, “You can take on a meditation practice and we’ll be done with therapy in 3 – 6 months, or you can not meditate and we’ll be done in 3 years. Your choice.”

Taking on a meditation practice is a gift of great kindness to yourself. You may think you don’t have time, or it’s “too out there” to meditate, or you’ve “tried it and can’t do it”. With all the research that shows the benefits of taking on a regular practice, it is well worth questioning those thoughts that prevent you from committing to this simple form of self-care.

There are very real physiological benefits of practice. Research suggests that the following conditions can benefit from taking on a regular practice:

• Anxiety disorders
• Asthma
• Cancer
• Depression
• Heart disease
• High blood pressure
• Pain
• Sleep problems

Do you experience any of these? And, do you notice that these are the ills that we associate with the modern world?

Here’s something most of us don’t understand when we first receive meditation instruction. You can’t do it wrong. It breaks my heart when I hear someone say, “I tried meditation, and I just can’t do it.” This is simply the voice of the Inner Critic sabotaging your efforts toward self-care.

We will continue to record the guided meditations in our ongoing classes and add workbooks to further develop this body of work, adding new home study courses. The Spiritual Practices 101 is the foundation upon which it all rests, and will be a prerequisite for any future in person or home study modules.

We are excited to share this with you!

To register for either course, email Durga@DurgaFuller.com and I’ll walk you through the process.

Blessings!

It’s been awhile since I posted a recipe – I assure you I still love to cook! And, we still have food sensitivities in our house.

I thought I had created a brand new recipe, but people have been comparing this one to Panna Cotta, so I guess I’m channeling something from a past life in Italy. I’ve never eaten Panna Cotta, and barely heard of it before. There you go. This one is dairy and sugar-free, so most of us can eat it. I made it with bananas for my eldest who is sensitive to berries of all kinds, and he gave it the thumbs up.

For a true Panna Cotta you could gel the coconut cream alone and top it with the fruit afterward, but I would recommend using fresh berries then. And, truly, the huge benefit of making this the way I have it outlined is how quick it is. Pouring the warm coconut-gelatin mixture over frozen blueberries is shear genius – the gelatin sets up in minutes! Quick, delicious and healthy.

Enjoy.

Blueberry-Coconut Panna Cotta

2 cup coconut cream (I use Aroy-D and LOVE it) or coconut milk

2 tsp gelatin powder, preferably Great Lakes or Jensen brand

a pinch Celtic sea salt

20 or so drops of vanilla or plain Stevia extract

enough frozen blueberries to fill 5 – 8 ramekins, depending on their size

Directions
Sprinkle the gelatin over the room temperature coconut cream or milk and let sit till it “blooms” – meaning it absorbs enough liquid for it all to look wet. It will expand a bit.

Heat the coconut cream or milk and gelatin until almost bubbling.

Mix the hot coconut cream mixture, stevia and sea salt and stir until smooth.

Pour into blueberry filled ramekins until full. Refrigerate until set. Which, if you use frozen bluebs, won’t take long at all.

Great for a quick dessert – and if you make a few extra ramekins they’re a delicious breakfast, too!

People sometimes ask me what kind of training I have to do the counseling work that I do. That question always makes me want to laugh and cry.

Yes, I have training in multiple spiritual, psychological and coaching modalities. Personal healing and spiritual awakening has been a central focus in my life since my late 20s. But, I didn’t embark on this path to heal others. I was crawling through the muck of my personal story, and was sick and tired of suffering.

It has not been a straight line, this healing path. There’s a saying that we travel in spirals as we heal, revisiting similar issues cyclically. Each time you find yourself seemingly going over the same ground, check in and see what’s shifted since the last time you were here. Are you catching the patterns faster? Do you have more awareness about the process you are in? Is there are part of you that is not quite as caught up in the story as it plays out? This is progress. We heal, sometimes slowly, and sometimes more quickly. But, movement is happening. Can you give yourself credit for that?

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My family attended a Beltane festival yesterday, an ancient Celtic celebration of springtime and fertility. We celebrated the outgoing May Queen (curtsy) and King, and welcomed a new May royalty who will hold and embody in sacred trust the ability of the earth and all its inhabitants to bring forth new life.

That may be literal or metaphoric children. We birth our ideas, we birth our creative endeavors, we birth our changes in our work-in-the-world. We all wrote down what we wanted to bring into life in the coming year on a ribbon and tied it to the Maypole – the sky god’s very own phallus resting in the earth mother’s yoni. We danced and sang and wrapped that phallus with our sincere wishes for prosperity and love and health and world peace. (In true Beltane fashion there were a few wishes expressed for really good sex, too.)
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Today is Easter. We may know the tragic story of Jesus (Yeshua) on the cross, the betrayal of Judas, the anguish of the Mother – we may have been taught that he died for our “sins”. This is the externalized view of Easter.

Then there’s the story that Christianity appropriated the pagan worship of the new life of spring, that fertility was sanitized into a spiritual rebirth. Because, fertility means sex, and you can’t have any of that – or, if you do, at least don’t admit you enjoy it. Let it be whitewashed into bunnies and baby chicks, both sweet representations of “fruitfulness”.

There’s a different path into this story.

You are Yeshua. You are the human who doubts and loves and wonders if it’s all worth it. Who wonders if there’s a way to escape your destiny, or escape your past. Everything you have done, with all your best intentions, with whatever tools you had at your disposal at the time, all of it has led you here.
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